Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Sandi Wednesday Night

Two more days of tests and surgery to get tissue samples have put her through quite a lot. She is doing as well as can be expected and appreciates very much the prayers and support from one and all.

I am exhausted. I will write more when I can string more than a couple of words together.


Monday, November 28, 2011

Sandi Monday Evening

Today has been the worst day of our lives....we got the worst possible news today on Sandi. More tests are planned the next few days to confirm the details.

Thank you to those who have contributed to the fund so that we will have a roof over our heads for another month. We really do appreciate it and are very grateful for the help.

Thank you.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Sandi Sunday Evening

Back home from the hospital where Sandi is amazingly positive despite everything here at home with our lack of rent money and other issues and her own situation.

Her BP is fine, her oxygen rate is fine and everything seems fine on the surface when you look at her or talk to her. She is making "wristers" like crazy and the nurses are quite taken with them. Looking at her and listening to her, everything seems fine as she stays positive and waits.

It also seems that her lung never fully re-inflated even though that was what we had been told on multiple occasions. Today she was told that it only "partially inflated" after the collapse last weekend. I had a nurse go back and check the records and apparently that was the notation everyday in the record since Monday. I'm not sure how either one of us so misunderstood that situation. I really don't think both Sandi and I misunderstood on multiple days how inflated her lung was.

The bone scan she underwent yesterday indicates a major problem that seems to confirm the diagnosis they came up with last Tuesday. We have to wait for one of the specialists to review that sometime tomorrow and then come talk to her about it. The final confirmation will be the tissues samples as they should be back tomorrow.

If it is what they think it is, it is a devastating situation both in terms of what it is and how far advanced it is. Hopefully they are very wrong on both counts. I know and understand what happens when she has a heart attack or a stroke. Been down that road before and dealt with both on more than one occasion. This thing is an insidious evil that may have been lurking and growing in her, hidden from view for years, until it now when it has spread widely and made its presence known. In all likelihood, if they are right, not a damn thing can be done at this point.

We are going to be homeless at the end of the week as we don't have anywhere near enough to pay the rent, barring a miracle, so I don't know what the hell we are going to do on any of this. Our lives were NOT supposed to go this way.

All I do know is that I can't fix any of it and I am mad as hell.


Sandi Sunday Morning

She is the same this morning as she was last night. They have taken yet another x-ray to check the status of her lung. She now is waiting for the doctors to make their rounds and check on her. She also wants to get out and come home, not just because of the fact that she is sick of the place, it is time to start planning for what to do when we don't make the rent in a few days.

I have been firmly informed that I am to stay home today until she knows something one way or another. She heard about my wind assisted fall into a pillar and resulting wipe out in the parking garage yesterday and is very upset I again got banged up coming to see her. She wants me there but at the same time she doesn't want me falling there. Or anywhere for that matter.

So, the waiting continues.......


Saturday, November 26, 2011

Sandi Saturday Night

This was day nine of Sandi’s current hospital stay and probably her best day yet.  Overnight, based on the x-ray, the lung did not fill with any more fluid. So, based on that and the fact that she can now cough like somebody should be able to, they made the decision to leave well enough alone and not drain it.

They got one of the tests done that had been planned for last Wednesday that wasn’t done. So she was very relieved to have that done and over with at last.

As we again face the strong possibility of being homeless we shall see what tomorrow brings……..


Friday, November 25, 2011

Sandi Friday Evening

It was about this time last Friday after a very long day spent in ER that they drained two liters out of Sandi’s lung and then admitted her to the hospital. For the first time since all this began she finally had a normal sounding cough today. They are thrilled she is coughing as this is a sign that her right lung is once again functioning correctly despite the fact it filled a bit with fluid overnight. When she coughs today it sounds like a normal cough instead of what she had done this past week which was a weak little gasp thing. She is in some pain in her ribs and is using oxygen part of the time.

In the morning the current plan is for her to have the daily chest x-ray and then have the lung drained. They then will prep her and do one of the multi hour tests they would have done Wednesday if she had not been so dehydrated.

Hopefully the test will really happen this time as we need all the answers we can get as fast as possible.


Friday Morning

Normally I would talk about how it is FFB and go over to Patti Abbott's wonderful blog at for the list. Normally there would be a review here as well. Not this week as books are very far from my mind these days.

Just talked to Sandi and her lung filled significantly over night according to the lung doctor.  She already knew that based on how she felt this morning so his news was not suprising. He plans on draining her tomorrow morning and then having her do another test.

She is upset, depressed and frustrated. Today marks day eight of her hospital stay and it seems she is no closer to having answers and fixing things than she was last week. 


Thursday, November 24, 2011

Thanksgiving 2011

I am back home from the hospital where Sandi is doing a bit better today. They have taken the IVs out of her and they took the drainage tube out to see what will happen overnight. Some of the blood work came back clean which is a good sign though tissue samples won’t be done until early next week.

It also looks like some of the tests that were planned for this Saturday have to be pushed back into next week because of what she went through yesterday. That and the fact that those involved are pretty much gone for the holiday weekend. In the morning they will reassess her status and we will go from there as we are in for “a long haul.”

On behalf of all of us, we hope you and yours had a wonderful Thanksgiving. We thank you so much for your donations to help us stay here, your prayers, your thoughts of support and your notes of encouragement. I have tried to respond to each and every one and I hope I did- both here and elsewhere.

We wouldn’t still be here without you. On this Thanksgiving we just can’t tell you how thankful we are for each and every one of you and how much it means to all of us. Thank you does not begin to cover it. But we are thankful and we thank you.


Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Sandi Wednesday Evening

Just got back home from the hospital.....Sandi has had a brutal day. They had to one of the procedures twice (a second time this afternoon) because she has had serious complications today. That resulted in an extra three hour ordeal for her.  She is hurting, exhausted and the palest I have ever seen her. She is conscious, barely able to talk, and the lung is continuing to drain at a horrendous flow rate.

No test results will be available before Monday at the earliest because of the holiday.

Because of the serious complications, two other testing procedures were canceled and will be rescheduled no earlier than Saturday.  This is because of the holiday as well as what happened with her today.


Over the last couple of days several authors have written me to ask about the status of their reviews. In their defense, I don’t think any of the authors had read my blog recently and therefore had no idea what was going on.  With Sandi in the hospital since last Friday, I have not been able to read or work on any reviews.  All of my very limited physical strength is being used up at the hospital trying to deal with the nightmare of what is happening.

Obviously, this is also not a good time to ask me to review your new book. Please understand that I am not implying anything about your book, your character or that my lack of response is anything more than my being emotionally overwhelmed and physically hurting and exhausted by events here. I’m glad your baby has hit the market and I understand your enthusiasm as I have also been published in the past.

Please understand, right now, I can’t think about anything other than the fact that we don’t have the rent or anything close to it, my wife is very ill undergoing tests to confirm a horrendous diagnosis, and whatever am I going to do?