Back when Sandi and I were driving down to Medical City Dallas Hospital on Forest Lane from our apartment in Plano, we used to occasionally talk about what I was working on when she was up to it. It was an hour one way—on a good day—as we came down south hoping that the car would not break down or some other calamity would not happen. She was on a schedule and we always knew that even if everything went right, it would be a long day.
We would get down into Richardson, and about the Spring
Valley Road area, we would normally start seeing the many cargo trucks and vans
for various pest control services. Many of them used a version of a squirrel on
the side of the vehicle, but there were also ones decorated with skunks and
other rodents. One morning in the fall of 2016 it seemed like every possible
truck was at one of the intersections in that area. There were lanes of traffic
all stopped with the various trucks line up nose to tail. The way I remember it,
they were lined up at all four sides of the intersection as we waited for the
traffic signal to start working again. There had to be more than twenty trucks
everywhere. Sandi made some comment about all the rodent trucks which became
the title of this story.
At the time there was an anthology that I was aiming
for and I had an idea. Some writers have tons of ideas. I am not one of those
people. I never have been. But this day, I had an idea I had been mulling
around and we had talked about it a little bit. I knew where I wanted the tale
to take place so I had the setting. I now had a title.
We bandied it about some more the rest of the way into
the hospital. About an hour later after she was all checked in and asleep as
the chemo dripped into her, I got to work. That became the project I worked on
that fall of 2016. Unfortunately, it did not make it into that anthology.
We rolled into January 2017 and soon my Mom passed
from a massive stroke. Writing was the last thing on my mind as I dealt with
what one does in such situations. I also had managed to have a car accident
while going back and forth to see Mom at the hospital so I had that to contend
with as well. Beyond all of that, it was also becoming clear that Sandi was not
doing as well as we all had hoped. With our situation and everything else, it
was clear the only real option was to move to the house I grew up. That was
never the plan, but it was now.
As the weeks passed into months and Sandi had a succession
of setbacks, she was hospitalized almost all the time as I worked on getting us
moved here. That was finally done in August 2017. Sandi was here, once we got
in this house, a couple of times for a day or two and then came home on hospice
right before Thanksgiving 2017.
They thought she had six weeks to two months. She had
two weeks.
Writing remained the last thing on my mind.
I know everyone says 2020 with the pandemic was the
worst year ever. They have good reason to say that. It was no piece of cake
around here with Scott’s seizure and my major cancer/colon scare and some other stuff.
But, for me, there is no question that 2017 was absolutely the worst year ever.
It is not even close. I still grieve on a daily basis. Sandi is always on my
mind. I suspect this is how it will always be.
In the years since, about once a year, I have dusted
off the piece, worked on it, and sent it off. It always came back. I was fully
prepared and braced for it to be rejected again. I remain very shocked and
massively grateful that my first publication in at least seven years, if not
longer, has finally happened.
I have no idea if this means, as some folks have suggested,
I am back writing again. I have looked at my old stuff, at different times the
past couple of years, and they read to me like somebody else wrote them whether
they won awards or not. I am radially different now than I was and whatever
creative side I had seems to be gone. At this point, I am not sure that any of
this means anything other than a piece that carries the weight of the world, in
my mind, is out there in print.
If you are still here, and still reading, now you know
a little more about the background of the tale. If you are still interested, you
can read about my story and many others in the Mystery Weekly Magazine: May
2021 issue at their website.
5 comments:
Kevin,
Congrats on the publication of your short story in MWM. A fine achievement!
Thank you.
Congratulations, Kevin! We often have no idea of the history behind a publication of novel or short story, so thank you for sharing this story.
Kevin, sorry to take so long to comment on this. I purchased a Kindle copy of the magazine and look forward to reading your story.
No worries and no need to apologize. Thank you big time.
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