Her BP is fine, her oxygen rate is fine and everything seems fine on the surface when you look at her or talk to her. She is making "wristers" like crazy and the nurses are quite taken with them. Looking at her and listening to her, everything seems fine as she stays positive and waits.
It also seems that her lung never fully re-inflated even though that was what we had been told on multiple occasions. Today she was told that it only "partially inflated" after the collapse last weekend. I had a nurse go back and check the records and apparently that was the notation everyday in the record since Monday. I'm not sure how either one of us so misunderstood that situation. I really don't think both Sandi and I misunderstood on multiple days how inflated her lung was.
The bone scan she underwent yesterday indicates a major problem that seems to confirm the diagnosis they came up with last Tuesday. We have to wait for one of the specialists to review that sometime tomorrow and then come talk to her about it. The final confirmation will be the tissues samples as they should be back tomorrow.
If it is what they think it is, it is a devastating situation both in terms of what it is and how far advanced it is. Hopefully they are very wrong on both counts. I know and understand what happens when she has a heart attack or a stroke. Been down that road before and dealt with both on more than one occasion. This thing is an insidious evil that may have been lurking and growing in her, hidden from view for years, until it now when it has spread widely and made its presence known. In all likelihood, if they are right, not a damn thing can be done at this point.
We are going to be homeless at the end of the week as we don't have anywhere near enough to pay the rent, barring a miracle, so I don't know what the hell we are going to do on any of this. Our lives were NOT supposed to go this way.
All I do know is that I can't fix any of it and I am mad as hell.