Please understand that things are very rough for me right now. I am dealing with a lot. I am coping as best as I can. I freely admit that I am overhwelmed and have done a poor job of juggling things.
If my ability to deal with things does not match your personal timeline of what I should be doing, I am sorry. I am doing the level best I can. If that is not good enough, go look in the mirror and think about things.