Sandi loved Christmas and all that it entailed. For me, without her, it is hell. This is the third holiday season without her and every year is just gets worse. I find myself crying at stupid commercials as well as a ton of other stuff. Lesa Holstine shared this on Facebook this morning and it hit home. I share it here for those of us, and no doubt there are many, that are in grief, in deep pain, and not finding any reason to be merry.
John Pavlovitz: Blue Christmas (What To Do When The Holidays Hurt)
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I know how hard it has been for you Kevin. Sometimes you have to take Christmas just one sugarplum at a time.
I'll be thinking of you over the Holiday.
I appreciate it, Jerry.
Sandi pretty much loved the whole holiday season. She defined it from my birthday on 11/20 to all the way to her birthday on 1/19. Christmas was the highlight for her and most years we could not do much. Then when I finally could have done something, she did not make it to it.
Christmas 2017 was hard, but I was still so numb it all went in a blur. I know stuff happened after she passed on the first, but, I have no idea what. Last year was bad. This year has been way, way worse. Between that and the fact I am very much aware that at 58 and with my own health stuff, I will also not be around much longer, it is a very morbid and sad time.
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